The usual conversation that will follow from someone asking me what I study, is what I then intend to do with my degree, and the answers is always the same; I don't know what I want to do after uni.
In first year it wasn't really a big deal, and maybe it still isn't now, but being halfway through my degree already I do sometimes think that I need to get a move on. When I was in sixth form I had several ideas about what I wanted to do at university, and now I'm at university I have several ideas of what I'd like to do after university, but they're just ideas, and I'm so indecisive.
When I listen to other people talking about law conversion courses, teacher training and placements, it actually makes me feel a little bit ill. I know that there are things that I should be looking in to, in order to help me to decide, but I can't even decide on them. It's terrible. Googling what to do with my life hasn't helped much either - I wouldn't recommend google for drastic life decisions.
Currently, I have about three or four ideas floating around in my head, but I wouldn't have said I'm very sure of any of them. As a person who always has to be organised and plans things months in advance, not knowing makes me incredibly anxious. It's not that I'm not driven - I want to go and do things with my life, it's that I don't know what I want to do. Most people I know have dreams that they want to go into a certain career, or work with children/animals, or just make lots of money. I know I'll have to make money, but doing what?
I think perhaps the problem might be to do with the number of people who aren't getting the jobs they want when they leave university. Or a job at all, in fact. I know that there are people who have not only worked a lot harder than me, but actually are a lot cleverer than me, and I'll have to compete with them for jobs. That's scary stuff. If you've ever seen the TV programme 'drifters' then you'll know what my fears are. Ending up back at my old part-time holiday job full-time whilst stuck living at home.
All I know right now is that I don't fancy doing a postgraduate degree, three years at university (and £27,000 in fees) is enough for me.
When I listen to other people talking about law conversion courses, teacher training and placements, it actually makes me feel a little bit ill. I know that there are things that I should be looking in to, in order to help me to decide, but I can't even decide on them. It's terrible. Googling what to do with my life hasn't helped much either - I wouldn't recommend google for drastic life decisions.
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I think perhaps the problem might be to do with the number of people who aren't getting the jobs they want when they leave university. Or a job at all, in fact. I know that there are people who have not only worked a lot harder than me, but actually are a lot cleverer than me, and I'll have to compete with them for jobs. That's scary stuff. If you've ever seen the TV programme 'drifters' then you'll know what my fears are. Ending up back at my old part-time holiday job full-time whilst stuck living at home.
All I know right now is that I don't fancy doing a postgraduate degree, three years at university (and £27,000 in fees) is enough for me.
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